{"id":46,"date":"2008-05-17T19:29:27","date_gmt":"2008-05-17T17:29:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/gunce.marsyas.gen.tr\/?p=46"},"modified":"2009-04-11T15:19:51","modified_gmt":"2009-04-11T13:19:51","slug":"bir-cumartesi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/gunce.marsyas.gen.tr\/?p=46","title":{"rendered":"Bir Cumartesi"},"content":{"rendered":"

Size de olmu\u015ftur muhakkak; \u00e7ocuklu\u011funuzda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yerler, kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z e\u015fyalar, oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z alanlar\u0131n beyninizdeki izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmleri y\u0131llarca sizi an be an takip eder, hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011finiz ve mant\u0131kl\u0131 bir ilgi kuramad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir anda sizi yakalar, sar\u0131p sarmalar ve bir s\u00fcre \u2013 belki uzunca bir s\u00fcre \u2013 yapmakta oldu\u011funuz i\u015ften, ya\u015famakta oldu\u011funuz zamandan k\u0131sac\u0131k anlar \u00e7alarak, o eski g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerin esiri olursunuz.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130stanbul’da 1972-78 y\u0131llar\u0131nda devam etti\u011fim yat\u0131l\u0131 okul hayat\u0131mdaki bu anlardan belki de en fazlas\u0131na kaynak olmu\u015ftu. Di\u011fer zamanlarda camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakmak pek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan serin, gri-mavi sonbahar ve belki ilkbahar ak\u015famlar\u0131nda yatakhane penceresinden, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki soka\u011f\u0131 ve soka\u011f\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki apartmanlar\u0131 g\u00f6zlerdim. G\u00fcnler ve gecelerce beraber oldu\u011fum arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerinden \u00e7ok mekan g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc \u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri bir foto\u011fraf makinesi imi\u015fcesine beynime nak\u015fetmek, y\u0131llar sonra bu mutsuz, umars\u0131z anlar\u0131 hat\u0131rlay\u0131p ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmek mi isterdim. Belki \u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ama daha ziyadesiyle amac\u0131m, o apartmanlar\u0131n dairelerinde ya\u015fayanlarla ilgili ipu\u00e7lar\u0131 toplay\u0131p, kendimce hikayeler t\u00fcretmek, <\/span>evlerin i\u00e7leri ile ilgili hayaller kurmakt\u0131. \u015eurada yaln\u0131z ya\u015fayan bir kad\u0131n, salonda toplanm\u0131\u015f aile, bir odadan di\u011ferine ge\u00e7ip odalar\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p kapatan ev sakinleri, bir di\u011ferinde benimkine benzer bir ama\u00e7la elinde gazete veya kitap okur gibi yap\u0131p okulun pencerelerini g\u00f6zleyen bir <\/span>delikanl\u0131, sokaktan yandaki Fenerbah\u00e7e klub\u00fcn\u00fcn antreman sahas\u0131na giden tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f futbolcular, ak\u015fam biraz daha karanl\u0131k bast\u0131r\u0131nca, saat 9 sular\u0131, yatakhanenin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 hen\u00fcz kapat\u0131lm\u0131\u015fken b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle sokaktan ge\u00e7en Porsche ve benzeri “haval\u0131” spor arabalar. “D\u0131\u015far\u0131da” ya\u015fanan siyasi, ekonomik sorunlardan bihaber, 12 Mart sars\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 ve sonras\u0131n\u0131n etkilerini gazete ba\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131ndan, <\/span>o da sadece haftasonlar\u0131 olmak \u00fczere yar\u0131m yamalak takip etmek \u2026 <\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130\u015fte bu sokak ve okulun iki taraf\u0131ndaki apartmanlar be\u015f y\u0131l boyunca senaryolar\u0131ma mekan olu\u015fturup, karakter temin ettiler. Aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e senaryolar\u0131n tamam\u0131 unutuldu ancak unutulmayan o bir iki saniyelik g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc kareleri idi. <\/span><\/p>\n

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Bu cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc \u2013 aradan neredeyse 35 sene belki biraz fazlas\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f \u2013 G\u00f6k\u00e7e’ye y\u0131l sonu g\u00f6sterisinde giymesi i\u00e7in kost\u00fcm kiralamaya giderken arabay\u0131 okulun epeyce yak\u0131n\u0131na park etmek zorunda kald\u0131m, hay\u0131r hi\u00e7 de zorunda kalmad\u0131m, oraya park etmeyi tercih ettim. Ya o g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerden biri veya bir ka\u00e7\u0131 hala as\u0131l\u0131 duruyorduysa. Ya ben tan\u0131d\u0131k bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcy\u00fc yakalarsam \u2026 <\/span><\/p>\n

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Giysi deneme i\u015fi bitip arabaya d\u00f6nerken G\u00f6k\u00e7e’ye okuldan bahsettim ama art\u0131k orada olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131p yerine “rezidans” yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledim. “Kolej” sokakta biraz y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp okulun yerini g\u00f6stermemi ister misin diye sordu\u011fumda, <\/span>asl\u0131nda cevab\u0131 beklemek \u00fczere sorulmu\u015f bir soru olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ikimiz de biliyorduk. D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fte bakkaldan alaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z dondurman\u0131n hayaliyle fazlaca s\u0131zlanmadan y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck sokak boyunca, ben biraz heyecanla, sab\u0131rs\u0131z, G\u00f6k\u00e7e yorgun ve s\u0131kk\u0131n ama teklif edilen dondurma ve <\/span>eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde bah\u00e7ede oynama r\u00fc\u015fveti ile al\u0131\u015f\u0131lagelenden daha az s\u00f6ylenerek. <\/span> <\/span>Benim hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m sokaklar m\u0131 daralm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, apartmanlar m\u0131 eskimi\u015fti, a\u011fa\u00e7lar m\u0131 kesilmi\u015fti, <\/span>deniz art\u0131k hi\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez olmu\u015f, Fenerbah\u00e7enin idman sahas\u0131 yerini “modern ve g\u00f6steri\u015fli” bir tesise b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Okulun iki m\u00fctevaz\u0131 binas\u0131n\u0131n yerinde g\u00f6kdelenvari alabildi\u011fine g\u00f6rkemli iki dev bina y\u00fckseliyordu. <\/span>Evet, o y\u00fcksek katlardaki dairelerden deniz muhakkak g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor, hatta belki Kurba\u011fal\u0131 dere. <\/span><\/p>\n

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Hissetti\u011fim buruklu\u011fun ad\u0131 hayalk\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0131 olmal\u0131 tam olarak bilemedim ama okuldaki ilk birka\u00e7 y\u0131l\u0131mda uzaktan <\/span>g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcne kap\u0131l\u0131p hayran oldu\u011fum, eski roman ve \u015fark\u0131lardaki \u015femsiyeli, feraceli han\u0131mlar\u0131n kurulup sandal sefas\u0131 yapt\u0131klar\u0131 romantik dere olarak hayal etti\u011fim yerin – nam-\u0131 di\u011fer <\/span>“boklu dere” – Kurba\u011fal\u0131 dere oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimdeki hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015fka bir \u015feydi bu seferki. <\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00c7oktan bitmi\u015f ve bir daha <\/span> <\/span>ya\u015fanmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan anlar silsilesi \u2013 en iyisi hi\u00e7 gitmemeli, beyindeki izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmleri ile idare etmeli, bitenin ard\u0131ndan gidip yenilemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmamal\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm \u00e7antam\u0131n cebine s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f buruk g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ile.
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Size de olmu\u015ftur muhakkak; \u00e7ocuklu\u011funuzda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yerler, kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z e\u015fyalar, oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z alanlar\u0131n beyninizdeki izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmleri y\u0131llarca sizi an be an takip eder, hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011finiz ve mant\u0131kl\u0131 bir ilgi kuramad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir anda sizi yakalar, sar\u0131p sarmalar ve bir s\u00fcre \u2013 belki uzunca bir …<\/p>\n

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